Big Jamaican guy--well, Jamaican from New York, to be exact--was strutting around the resort last summer, talking about how he'd be a millionaire if he moved to Jamaica and could somehow still earn his New York salary. "I could be living like two king out here," he said, curling up his big lips like an exclamation point. Somebody, no ehhhvrybody in the group wanted to say Oh really, Mr. Moneybags? And what about New York court-mandated childcare payments for the five or so children you'll be leaving behind in new York? Add that to your Caribbean luxury life and see how far your money will stretch then.
But we didn't actually say that. We were on vacation--we transplanted Caribbean / West Indian people--so we dreamed right along with him...
And when we returned to New York, we continued to look for ways to escape this place and "go back"...
--In our close-knit, closed-off Guyanese communities in Brooklyn and Queens
--Playing mas in cold places dressed in turtle necks
--Stocking up on island patties, frozen stiff in a box
But it ain't so straightforward. We love how far we've come and can go in this place...
--Look! That woman in a major role in that primetime TV show is GUYANESE!
--Listen to that sweet Trini accent denouncing that political candidate for Mayor of New York and commanding the attention of many!
--Girl what you waiting for? Call your grandmother in Antigua and tell her you just won a coveted scholarship to that top university!
--Carib ID 2010 !
Truth is, most of us don't really want to pack up traps and go back physically. We still see and remember the unchecked corruption, the lawlessness, the reality that too often you have to know somebody who is somebody to get ahead, the men who put deh hand on you with impunity, the ignorance... And somehow all of that overshadows any real desire to return.
So we lay on the beach last summer--comebackees (hate that one), transplants, generous remittance givers, familiar to the locals, and strange as well--counting and converting currency in our heads, counting the possibilities, but eventually getting right back on the plane and forgetting about it til next time.
Our message would be something like this Hey Caribbean, we love you; we really do. But we're not coming back to stay. Well, who knows, maybe Mr. Moneybags Millionaire was serious.
